Friday, October 5, 2012

a casual conversation


the other day,
i was sitting up in our music center 
talking to some friends
while i was waiting for one of my violin students to arrive.
the percussion teacher, Conrad, 
came and sat down  with us and asked about the  posters i had put up for homecoming.
He asked me:
"why do you want to be homecoming queen?"
my first response: "i don't know"
but then i thought more about it,
and began to explain
how i came to mansfield,
having spent high school not involved in much of anything
but wanting to turn over a new leaf,
and get involved. 
so i did. 
i joined hall council, activities council, mountie guides, residence life, etc.
and running for homecoming was the last thing i wanted to do
before i left and ventured forwards in life.
he replied:
"wow, it seems like you really found yourself here." 
his response took me a back a little.
and made me  think.
and think
and think.
and you know what?
he's right.
i spent much of my senior year of high school,
resisting the idea of college.
i applied to all of TWO schools,
the only two schools I could find that didn't have essays on their applications.
i was that unmotivated and against the idea of going to college.
upon acceptance,
i reluctantly  came up to mansfield for orientation.
declared a major just for the sake of declaring a major,
and started my freshman year.
from the first day,
i absolutely loved it (well, everything except my major) and
through a  series of  meaningful events,
i changed my major to music education.
since that change,
i've had days that have been very rewarding
and days
and days
of struggle.
i've failed  a few classes,
spent countless hours in tutoring,
been completely unmotivated to practice,
missed home,
had my heart broken,
been convinced i'd never get above a 40% on a dictation test,
lost friends,
reconnected with friends and
learned  the importance of knowing when to lead and when to follow.
it was all this struggle
and finally being out on my own
that helped me 
to find myself.
as people ,
we are constantly
but  i am so thankful for the past couple years
and i can't wait to see what is next on the journey
we call life.



  1. Thanks for linking up at Super Sunday Sync!
    Hope to see you next week!

  2. Sometimes life just finds us. :) Happy you found yourself and ended up happy with your choice.

    Following you from Sunday Sync.

    1. thank you!! hope you're enjoying your week :)

  3. Love that you found your call, even if it took a little bit. Glad to see you're happy!

    Miss V's Busy Bees

    1. thanks for stopping by and reading. hope you're enjoying your week :)

  4. I love your writing! Nice to meet ya chicky! Stop by my blog when you get a second and lets be friends? Maybe we could follow each other??

    1. just stopped by your blog and your recipes look AMAZING! i'm going to try the chicken cordon blue ASAP! thanks for stopping by :)

      Have a great rest of your week!

  5. Replies
    1. next dictation test: 98.5323497% guaranteed :)

  6. Hey girl! found your blog through the flock together hop! this is a lovely post.
    im now following along.

  7. I love this post about your journey. Speaks volumes. Popping over from the GFC blog hop. Can't wait to read more on your blog!

  8. Dear Brittany, today's post is insightful for me and I would guess also for you. I'm a new follower from the hump day hop. What instruments do you play? I play piano and I'm currently in a band, which is tons of fun. If you like photography, check my blog out: